is knowing exactly how ignorant and unintelligent you really are.
I’ve always had a sense of how much I didn’t know.
When I speak or write I have phrases in my head “on the tip of my tongue” and I know that I know these things, but they are still beyond my mental grasp.
This feeling is the most unsettling experience, I feel incompetent and acutely aware of how forgetful I am. Mental blue-balls.
Why can’t I just know what I know.
I think about these things a lot, I think about the things I wish I knew how to think about.